Category: grief

Some dude on Bumble (because I am that idiotic hopeless romantic and can’t hold onto my resolve any better than I can hold onto a dollar bill): Your blog made me laugh. Kind of wondering what I have to do to be a subject.Me: My blog made you laugh? That’s good because I’ve been feeling… Continue reading I’ve Lost the Light… I Don’t Know Where

weeks ago — before thanksgiving — i bought a tiny christmas tree for my room. it stayed in the bag in my trunk until tonight. i was in heb getting a plant as a housewarming gift for a dude i’d been talking to for a couple of weeks — i’d chosen not to get a… Continue reading bah humbug

me: are you okay if i’m in jeans and a t-shirt? bumbler: yes, i prefer it. days later… me: what sort of woman do you seek, and where do i fall short in comparison? bumbler: you wore a t-shirt and brought a backpack with you on our date. that’s fine, but it doesn’t really suggest… Continue reading it should be enough…

i don’t know how old i was when i learned i had cerebral palsy. i suspect it was when i was ten, when i had to have the third of six surgeries… the first one i was old enough to remember. i had a navel hernia — something to do with the abdominal wall and… Continue reading the unreliable narrator

i used to imagine were i to get married what my wedding would be like. most of the time i envisioned it at a catholic church in the woodlands, not far from where i live, and because my father is who is and is so well-loved by so many, i doubt very much the guest… Continue reading mercy

my aunt killed herself on wednesday. i have always viewed my brother’s death as a suicide — but his method was painstaking and debilitating. he drank and drank and drank until his body said enough, and it took about a decade for that end to come. i lost my brother a long time ago, but… Continue reading let there be light

speaking of men… sunday. some dude emails me on match: hey beautiful! how’s your day going? i’m joe* and you are?joe’s profile stats say he’s in florida, but his headline says he’s a midwest guy new to the west coast. the second sentence in his about me section says that he’s recently settled in louisiana…… Continue reading hogwash

not even the trees hootie and the blowfish someone please talk to me ’cause i feel you cry and you’re sitting with him, and i know i’ll never see you again… i wonder if you’re looking down at me and smiling right now i wanna know if it’s true when he looks at me, won’t you tell me does… Continue reading a sadness i can’t erase